I've been with my boyfriend since high school (I'm 22 now, started dating when I was 17) and he is the only person I have ever been in a relationship with. I have shared every "first" with him and, for the most part, he has with me.

When we graduated from high school, I left for college  he stayed to attend city college at home. We are about 4 hours apart. Although it was tough, we made it work and the distance did come between us. Or at least I thought.

Recently (within the last 6 months), I've become increasingly clingy and emotional about him. I was never like this before, and used to prided myself on letting him "be with the guys" without feeling guilt. Now, whenever he gets off the phone to go out with someone I feel empty, alone, and break down in tears. When this happens, he says he'll cancel his plans and talk with me, but I don't want him to only stay with me because I'm desperate for his attention. I want him to want to talk with me. To choose to stay on the phone with me, rather then go out.

I know it's selfish, and I know he loves me. What I don't know is why I have become like this. I really makes me feel selfish and weak. I've never been so needy before, but I think the long distance is finally catching up to me. I don't know what to do, I just want to feel like "me" again.

Any advice is appreciated. Thank you