I am in a love triangle. I want to make a decision... but am going crazy in the process.

I've known E for 4 years and he is my best friend. We have a ton of fun together and he has a lot of money. My family likes him and his family likes me. Life is ... well, easy and fun with him. He is head over heels in love with me and wants to give me the world... or at least all of the things he can buy in this world I love him too, of course. It'd be a no-brainer if it wasn't for these complications. I'm not super physically attracted to him. Also, because he's been well off his whole life, he doesn't have a lot of life experience, including relationship experience. I am constantly the leader in this regard... and I just feel smarter than him... which is strange because I really like a man that I can learn a lot from. Other than this, there are just little lifestyle things... such as the fact he has a maid and other luxury services for everything... whereas my family and I are used to doing it all ourselves. I can't help but feel a bit resentful. But then again... it'd be great to have this kind of lifestyle, you know? I'd be free to pursue anything and everything I wanted... without the worry of working so hard to make ends meet, like now. There's so much I'd want to do! And, he lives just 30 minutes away.

Then there's B. I've known B a little longer than I've known E. I dated B the whole time I've known E... and at one point we were even engaged. He lived with me and my family for those 4 years. My family absolutely adores him. We are completely in love with each other and he is the sweetest man I've ever known. He's very physically attractive to me and the sex is great. He shares a lot of life experience with me. But he has no money and will never inherit anything, either. He's also in debt from staying here. He's not a US citizen so he was on a student visa, paying out of state tuition. With him, both of us would have to work quite hard... at least for a generous amount of time. He's also the type of guy where you tell him something and you have to follow up on it. I broke things off because I wasn't sure if I could marry him under these circumstances. He's back in his home country, working. He wants to work things out again. However, it's at the point where we either get married or move on. Both of our families want us to "shit or get off the pot" so to speak because it's too hard and too expensive to keep things going as it is now. If not marriage, we'd be doing some sort of long distance thing, which is not ideal for any of us. So, it's difficult with this kind of pressure.

I know I may be generalizing this situation a lot but I am trying to keep it simple. Of course, there's so much more to these stories but I think I'm putting in the important stuff

Honestly, I feel as though I could be happy with either man. It's all just a matter of what life I choose. Of course, I think I love B more... but if E was given 4 years, I wonder if it'd be the same? Both E and B know what's going on through my head, as I've been 100% honest with each of them. I'm currently talking with both and I'm hanging out with E on some days. I've asked for an open relationship, but the answer was no.

I feel as though I want to try things out with E. I really want that lifestyle and I really enjoy spending time w/him, always have. Everything is so carefree and easy. Money does that, you know? He's my best friend and I know we have something amazing and special... which could and most likely would... develop into something amazing, given time. But I know that means giving up B forever. I feel afraid of moving on from B. I really do love him a lot. I still live with my family so I'm surrounded by memories. And every single item of mine has some kind of memory associated with him. Not to mention, my family keeps in touch with him. It almost feels like he's my foundation, so to speak. I've learned and grew so much from him. Really, if B had money, I don't think I'd even think about E. But it'd be a much harder life.

I've asked myself some hard questions. I've written out a pro/con list. I've talked with my family and friends. I've read books. I've read websites. I've thought about my future with each man... 10 years, 20 years.... children, etc. There's a lot of great philosophy but ultimately, I get this "Wow, I wouldn't know what to do either. Good luck w/your decision!" or a "Marry for love or marry for money" kind of dilemma. So, I feel as though it couldn't hurt to get some un-biased advice.

Thank you so much for reading and I'd appreciate any feedback!