I dated my ex for a few years. We were very happy as all new relationships, but about a year and a half, he started taking pain pills and quit his job. He became very controlling and jealous and verbally abusive. I lost a lot of respect for him. We have been broken up for 2 years now. I saw a couple of other people but never had the connection that my ex and myself had. I understand that it was the drugs that changed him, and he really is a great man, but I could not be in that kind of relationship. We continued to talk throughout our breakup and we decided to get back together. I am 23 and so is he. He went back to school, has been doing well and has maintained the same job for about 2 years now. I really do love him very much, but my concern is not if I want to be with him, I’m certain that I do. We plan on marrying as well. I made a late decision to wait until marriage for sex and living together. He is happy with that and will wait for me. I love him very much, but I am very worried that I do not find him sexually desirable. He is incredibly handsome and funny and has been wonderful to me, how he was before his stint with drugs. I'm just so concerned that it won't come back. I would marry him with or without that desire but I want to know 2 things. 1: How do I get this desire back, and 2: will it last?