My boyfriend is out of the country for a week. The other night I got drunk at a party and asked a trusted friend to take me home seeing as I was in no condition to drive. The last thing I remember was getting into the car and I passed out and fell asleep. The next thing I remember is that I open my eyes and my friend is fucking me in the back of his car and my clothes are half off. I made him stop and freaked out. He drove me home. I woke up the next morning and called him, met up with him for 15 minutes to confirm what had happened and to end the friendship. I love my boyfriend. We are just getting back together and so our relationship is fragile. Before going out of the country I had told him not to do anything he or I would regret. I am a hypocrite. I can't believe what happened and I am ashamed of myself. Only my siblings and my two best friends know and none of them would tell him. They don't even talk to him. He will not find out unless I tell him. I know for a fact that my boyfriend cheated on me, and there is a possibility that he could have done it twice. I let both of those incidents slide and got over them. We have come so far. I cannot lose him. He is my world. Only one person out of the four (not including the guy) says that I should tell him. Even though I was taken advantage of, I'm pretty sure he will leave me. I don't want to hurt him, and even though telling him would relieve me of my guilt, I think my guilt will keep it from every happening again. I have never cheated before. I don't want to hurt him and I don't want to lose him. Should I tell him and let him leave me for being taken advantage of by a trusted friend? or should I live with the guilt but stay with the person I love? help me please.